...For this day (Monday)...Garrison's first day at school
(ok, so it is just Mother's Morning Out, but still!!)
(ok, so it is just Mother's Morning Out, but still!!)
He was sleeping so soundly when I had to wake him up...
but I could see that sweet grin poking through...
He was excited!
We managed to get all dressed and ready to go -
...and take a few minutes to snapshot the moment...
Walking in - all smiles...
He walked proudly into his room and helped me hang up his bag and put all his things in his cubby. All was well, til his smart self looked around the room and realized no other Mama's were there and I could suddenly sense him getting a little tense... I gave him a hug and continued 'unpacking' - then eased out of his room without making a scene.
Then I messed up.
I peeked back in through the window.
He was just standing there - looking around...looking for me.
Then I messed up a second time and looked in again.
Then I messed up.
I peeked back in through the window.
He was just standing there - looking around...looking for me.
Then I messed up a second time and looked in again.
He had his little hands up by his face and I could see the tears welling in his eyes. I knew if I was going to leave, I had to go then, or I'd never be able to leave that building without him!! So I did.
I walked on to my car, trying to not be upset and keep telling myself that he is going to be fine - then, I saw Hope - Thank you Lord for sending her at that moment, He knew I needed a friend to tell me Garrison was going to be fine and that I would be fine too!! :) She let me cry a little and I went on my way to work.
I had a few moments of tears, and kept watching the clock til time to go get him! (And I kept telling myself that this was my idea - no one told me I had to send him...) I just kept feeling like I had abandoned him - that I had left him in an unfamiliar place with no one he really knew. ( I think I got a little 'over dramatic' and hope to do better tomorrow! :) )
Finally it was 11:20 and I bolted to go get him - when I got there, he was nearly asleep in his teacher's lap! Bless him. He was exhausted!! She said he had a good time - didn't stay upset long that morning and had a great time on the playground! He wasn't too happy when they came back in, but that is perfectly normal for him! ha!
This was when I picked him up - he was telling me about the blue sucker Ms. Deidra gave him!
I had a few moments of tears, and kept watching the clock til time to go get him! (And I kept telling myself that this was my idea - no one told me I had to send him...) I just kept feeling like I had abandoned him - that I had left him in an unfamiliar place with no one he really knew. ( I think I got a little 'over dramatic' and hope to do better tomorrow! :) )
Finally it was 11:20 and I bolted to go get him - when I got there, he was nearly asleep in his teacher's lap! Bless him. He was exhausted!! She said he had a good time - didn't stay upset long that morning and had a great time on the playground! He wasn't too happy when they came back in, but that is perfectly normal for him! ha!
This was when I picked him up - he was telling me about the blue sucker Ms. Deidra gave him!
He told me a few things about his day - played on the playground, specifically the slide and bus, had snack, goldfish and a cookie, and played with Barrett and 'a gurl' (the story I got from him was that he (Garrison) was playing with the microwave, and the 'gurl' was playing with the refridgerator - and 'her needed to get out of my way'!!....oh me....!! We have a lot to learn about sharing!).
We celebrated by going to Pizza Hut for lunch - his favorite!
I guess we'll find out tomorrow how much fun he had on Monday - day two will be tomorrow.
To follow up on my sweet friend, Hope - she just emailed me this...not sure where she found it, but it's a big tear jerker...and seems to fit my feelings pretty accurately!!
I wonder what you're doing right now,
And if everyone is treating you kind.
I hope there is a special person,
A nice friend that you can find.
I wonder what you're doing right now,
And if everyone is treating you kind.
I hope there is a special person,
A nice friend that you can find.
I wonder if the teacher knows
Just how special you are to me.
And if the brightness of your heart
Is something she can see.
Just how special you are to me.
And if the brightness of your heart
Is something she can see.
I wonder if you are thinking about me,
And if you need a hug.
I already miss the sound of your voice
And how you give my leg a tug.
I wonder if you could possibly understand
How hard it is for me to let you grow.
On this day know that my heart breaks,
For this is the first step in letting my baby go.
And if you need a hug.
I already miss the sound of your voice
And how you give my leg a tug.
I wonder if you could possibly understand
How hard it is for me to let you grow.
On this day know that my heart breaks,
For this is the first step in letting my baby go.
(Priceless!)
